I don't actually expect to live to one hundred. I don't know that I would want to. But the question as to the number of years I have in total is out there, and at the 50 year mark, I know I have spent more than what I have left. I always think about that point in the movie, The Bucket List, where Morgan Freeman's character talks about being part of the 1% of the population that wants to know when they die, and then when faced with the truth realizes he was wrong. He, like the vast majority of the others, actually does not want to know.
I'm not trying to be morbid. Not at all. I accept my age, and all that it entails, and honestly what I am focused on now is making sure I have as much life in my days as I can possibly have. I think about working, not working, about how working is such a *waste* of time....And I think about how I could spend my time if I had more of it, and I think about what is the best use of my time, and I think about what I want to be sure and do while I can, and finally, I think about remembering the years that I have already had. Of savoring the days past, and the days to come, and the one that I have today.
I have always loved compare and contrast/then and now layouts. I didn't know to do them really until Stacy Julian introduced me to the concept at Creating Keepsakes University in Houston in 2006. But, since then I enjoy creating one whenever I get the chance. When my July CREATE assignment rolled in, and included a layout with journaling inspired by a song, I immediately thought of Five for Fighting's "You Only Got a Hundred Years", and I knew it would be a then to now layout, and I decided to actually make it about me. It's hard to scrap about me, partially because there are few photos, and partially because while I don't mind parading my family around, I am fairly private as an individual. ;-) Oxymoron? Yes, please.
The lyrics of this song are ones I never tire of reading.
"100 Years"
I'm 15 for a moment
Caught in between 10 and 20And I'm just dreamingCounting the ways to where you areI'm 22 for a momentAnd she feels better than everAnd we're on fireMaking our way back from Mars15 there's still time for youTime to buy and time to lose15, there's never a wish better than thisWhen you only got a hundred years to liveI'm 33 for a momentStill the man, but you see I'm a "they"A kid on the way, babe.A family on my mindI'm 45 for a momentThe sea is highAnd I'm heading into a crisisChasing the years of my life15 there's still time for youTime to buy and time to lose yourselfWithin a morning star15 I'm all right with you15, there's never a wish better than thisWhen you only got a hundred years to liveHalf time goes bySuddenly you’re wiseAnother blink of an eye67 is goneThe sun is getting highWe're moving on...I'm 99 for a momentAnd dying for just another momentAnd I'm just dreamingCounting the ways to where you are15 there's still time for you22 I feel her too33 you’re on your wayEvery day's a new day...15 there's still time for youTime to buy and time to chooseHey 15, there's never a wish better than thisWhen you only got a hundred years to live
And I know not all of the lyrics apply precisely to me. They are, after all, sung by a man. But the concept in the song lyrics strikes such a chord, and the idea of going from 15 to 100, spanning through the years of your life, is so rich to me that I love to revel in the thoughts, and in the years, and to dissect a moment of my life here and there. When I began the layout, I wasn't entirely sure what I would find when I mined the data of my photos. 15, 22, 33, 45. Random integers. Numbers in a string. Ages of my life. Stages of me.
{I would be remiss here if I didn't insert, in full transparency, a little of my battle with weight gain. I have been on the losing, or winning, end of the diet battle my entire adult life.} So when I say I didn't know what I would find, I literally didn't know what I would find. I was particularly pleased to discover that these numbers represented some of my "lean" years. ;-) I also worked within the {few} pictures I had of me at these ages to select photos to represent the different roles I have had: daughter (15), wife (22), mom (33), and working scrapbooker (45). I loved pulling together this snapshot of segments of my life. Ages on a page. Numbers in a row. Parts of me as I have been.
I have been blessed, no doubt at all, with a "good ride" so far. I can't see ahead. I can only take in this day, make a few plans for the near future, and remember my stories of the past. I do plan to eek out all of life that I can, all that God gives to me. I do hope to get another few decades out. I'd like to need to do a companion layout to this one. Do you think I can? Will I still be scrapbooking in 30 years? I am not certain of what is ahead. But, I know as long as I can, I will be savoring my days, and striving to tell some of the stories therein.
There's never a wish better than this....when you only got a hundred years to live.
You Only Got a Hundred Years to Live ~ Snapshots of Me ~ July 2015
This layout was featured in the July issue of Create by Scrapbook Generation which can be seen here on their website.
Paper: Authentique, Pebbles
Title Font: American Typewriter, Mahogany Script
This is absolutely beautiful, Penny.... the layout and what the layout is about. I love this idea. I'll be 50 in four years so this really resonates with me. I enjoy reading your blog from time to time. I love your writing style and, of course, your layouts.
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